There’s always a lesson of a lifetime in every betrayal. Edmond Mbiaka
I experienced several lifetimes worth of betrayal during my years in Bangkok. Betrayal is defined as: ‘an act of deliberate disloyalty’, ‘to mislead or deceive’, ‘destroying trust–possibly lying’.
If we examine our lives honestly most of us can say that we have been on both sides of the betrayal game–it’s just a matter of degree. For example, teenagers often betray their parents’ trust by testing boundaries. As we age and gain wisdom, however, we begin to understand the damaging ramifications of betrayal.
That said, betrayal of one’s values can be very seductive, especially in a strange new environment where all the rules seem to have changed. I witnessed many Bangkok ex-pat. marriages collapse as men succumbed to the allure of exotic Thai bar girls. Possession of a rock-solid marriage and family life should be listed as a requirement before being posted to this part of the world.
But what about other kinds of betrayal that pierce the soul? International postings (including those in international schools) are not easy to get. Competition is stiff and reputation is everything in order to move up and on to other postings. Sometimes people will resort to unethical extremes to attain their goals. Duplicity, pretense and stepping on the necks of colleagues often comes with the territory.
But real betrayal doesn’t come from our enemies. It comes from those we hold dearest and consider the best of friends. It comes from those we believe will stand by us through thick and thin. Suddenly, one day, in one shattering moment, we realize that our firm ground of trust has collapsed and we have been deceived and abandoned.
My book tells the story of betrayals, both personal and professional, that knocked me to the ground during those Bangkok years. It also reveals how I survived.
5 thoughts on “Betrayal”
Very true Sharon. One day during Communion, I was struck by the words the Pastor spoke; “In the night that He was betrayed, Jesus took wine and blessed it …” I realized that the betrayal of Jesus by Judas was so very painful for Him. In order to be betrayed by someone, you first had to be important to them, and they to you. You don’t get over it easily, or perhaps, never.
Hi Sharon…..your piece on betrayal has left me wanting to know more. It rings very familiar to me and I can’t wait to read your book. Where do I get that? Carol
Hi, I haven’t published the book yet. I’m still working on final edits. I hope to make it available in early 2019. Thanks so much for your interest.
You’re right that betrayal comes from those closest to ourselves. The closer the individual, the greater the pain felt from the betrayal.
While I’ve had my fair share of betrayals, I still go forward and trust most everyone and believe that I will not be betrayed. Sometimes I’m wrong and boy does that hurt but, generally, I’m right to trust people and have made some great friends because I put myself out there.
Enjoying reading your blog.